crisis
less words this week, mostly due to an existential crisis. I think i burned myself out writing about 20,000 words. I have a decent plan to finish. Part I to be finished in November. About 30k words....
View Articlel a z y
every day for the past few months has been a struggle to get up in the morning. i have, what i would call, a heavy heart. it weighs me down, and i imagine it appears from the outside to be...
View Articlescary movie
My lack of writing continues unabated. It would be impressive if it wasn't so depressing. Last night i decided to just chill and watch the american football instead of doing even a wee bit of...
View Articledreams and nightmares
had a rather horrific nightmare to wake up to at 445am today. oddly, it involved sexy time. who'd have thought that could be nightmarish! i remember not being able to get back to sleep, but i obv did...
View Articlefilms reviews
so, Netflix, eh? some great tv shows. some great films. a lot of shite films with high Netflix ratings.IMDB used to be a reputable source for ratings. these days, imdb cannot be trusted for ratings as...
View Articlewaiting for the phone to ring
a brief excursion a couple of weeks ago allowed some remarkable human interaction.1. the local travel agency has a sign in their window, no doubt attempting to drum up business, which states"because...
View ArticleA question for you. (Yes, you, reading this right now)
I need much help. It turns out that I don't really like living on this planet. I find that almost everyone I have ever met lacks kindness. Maybe I am naive as I just don't understand why you wouldn't...
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Shake spear
"It is better to have loved and lost then never to have loved at all."Is it?I present a case for the opposition:
View Articlesad times.
i once had a girlfriend. the most amazing human being i have ever met. it is very sad i am too mental (or idiotic!) that i no longer have her in my life.amongst the many words of wisdom she has...
View Articlepoker memories
having been very depressed of late, i have tried to stop being so very depressed. i harked back to the less bad old days and reminisced on my former life poker highlights. in chronological order they...
View ArticleEdwardX talks
Who knew TED talks could last 30 minutes? They should be renamed Edward talks so people can differentiate between them. I, for one, don't think they should. But still I listened to it. And there was...
View Articleinspiration
I fcuked up with the most amazing lady in the world. Now, I can totally understand how people die of broken hearts.She is still my inspiration, and so I'm getting back on the 'doing one thing a week...
View Articlethings to scare me
this week: talking to a therapist because i went a bit (read: completely) mental recently and I need to sort my brain out.next week: starting a martial arts training. I hope that this will increase my...
View Articleconfusing kindness with weakness
much like associating folding with weakness, i think most people incorrectly associate kindness with weakness. quite spectacularly. I think too many people also confuse not caring what other people...
View Articletherapiss
I went to a therapist this week and am astonished at how much it has helped. They had many certificates on the wall, and recommendations from people i trust. The only word I want to use to describe...
View Articlethe worst theives
having been attacked by the worst muggers, i have now been burgled by the worst burglers.they destroyed my front door, stole my car keys, ransacked the place and took nothing other than a few pounds in...
View Articleexistential crisis number 132
Showers are great for thinking. In today's shower I realised that about two years ago I mentioned on here I need to get some new friends. The criteria was whether they liked the TV show Derek.In the...
View Articlethings i've learned while cycling
most people cannot judge the speed of a bicycle. or they think because you're not a car it won't hurt if you hit them at 35km/h. or that they, as pedestrians, have right of way on the road.following on...
View Articlemore things i've learned while cycling
Gastroenteritis is very painful.I've had hangovers where i whispered into the phone that "i just want to die" to make it end. High interval training is probably worse. Just 4 minutes is excruciating -...
View Articlebeing open!
this has not gone well. I realised that i don't like being open with people i don't like. Perhaps I need to change this and just be open with everyone including those i dislike....
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